Saturday, November 16, 2013

Sometimes We Have those Days, Weeks, Months, and Years

I've been gone; vanished from the blogging world for weeks. I knew I would come back to blogging, I just needed a little time to adjust to life in 2nd grade.



At the beginning of the school year I asked my students to graph how they felt about beginning 2nd grade. They had just as much enthusiasm and excitement as I did. I was very much determined to make this year the best year yet after a challenging year last year. This would be my 5th year of teaching, so I had high expectations for myself and for my students.

I was feeling a bit overconfident when God stepped in. On October 2nd I left work in an ambulance. If you read some of my previous posts, you know why. It took almost three weeks before I was back in school. Everything I worked so hard on... the management, the classroom community, student work ethic... It all went down the drain! I had a wonderful amazing substitute, but my kiddos world had changed, and then changed again when I came back, so of course things got crazy.

My excitement changed to overwhelmed, to frustrated, to miserable. I'd come home almost every night feeling like a failure of a teacher and just ball my eyes out. I felt like I had not control over my students anymore. I'd spend hours on lesson plans, and wouldn't even be able to execute the lessons because I'd have to stop and manage my classroom.

The LAST thing I wanted to do was blog. Why would I blog to other teachers about teaching if I felt like I wasn't doing a good job at getting through and engaging my students?

I had some deep conversations with some important people in my life, and my teaching partner. They all knew who I was and could add some piece of inspiration to my life.

My teaching partner was right! I was doing way too much. The perfectionist in me tried to be perfect at everything instead of focus on one thing at a time. I put some of my TPT projects on hold and focused on classroom management.

When I set my mind to something, I work my you-know-what off to meet my goal! I exhausted myself with a positive attitude, pointing out every good example that I could. I busted my rump to keep things entertaining and exciting for my kids so that I could keep the pace of my lessons. I cut transition times in half!

Success Story (Yay!!): Last Thursday I was put to the test with my formal observation (EEEKKK!). I was so nervous I was shaking. I completed my math lesson and watched as my hard work fell into place. The timing was right, the transitions were right, the routines were in place. My review was glowing. I feel like a good teacher again.

Teaching is hard work. I knew that when I started this profession it would be difficult... But, Man! I have so much respect for quality educators it's ridiculous!

I taught in the city and had no idea what I would face at at Title 1 school in a rural town. I had no idea what challenges my students would face in their personal lives. The least I could do is provide a warm caring environment for them and a safe place to grow. I hate that I had to leave them for a few weeks, but am so happy to be back and be able to grow right along with them!

I wanted to leave my blog readers with one of the best inspiration education videos I've seen! Rita Pierson sadly has passed away, but her words can still be shared and can still inspired educators everywhere! Enjoy!



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